NYOHOHOHO

Weird Way to Get a Red Light Traffic Ticket

2012-01-10T10:08:00.000-08:00

ABC: Driving and chatting with 123.

123: Sitting beside ABC, the Driver.

WWW: Sitting at the back, behind the driver, observing watch.

Driving direction: Driving straight and approaching a yellow litted traffic light. After traffic light, need to bear right (driving route 90degrees).

ABC the Driver thought: "Oh better slow down now, its the red light. *ABC always regard self as a safe and steady driver*."

123 staring towards the left hand side day dreaming.

WWW suddenly panicked and shouted: "Just keep going!!!!!"

ABC: "but its red now!"

123 *silence*

WWW: "JUST GO!!!"

In ABC's brain:

"JUST GO!!!"

"JUST GO!!!"

"JUST GO!!!"

Thus, ABC accelerates eventhough its red light.

123 just kept quiet.

WWW is panicking.

Lo and behold, suddenly 2 police officers chased from nowhere,

and that was how ABC was awarded with a ticket.

Final scene:

In the car, while ABC followed police until reached open space:

ABC yelled and blamed WWW.

123 yelled and blamed ABC:

"IT WAS SO OBVIOUS THEY ARE THERE! THEY WERE RIGHT THERE WAITING AT THE OPPOSITE ROAD ON THE LEFT HAND SIDE AT THE FRONT ROW!!"

123 knew police was there before WWW yelled: "JUST GO".

ABC felt furious blamed 123 for not helping out.

WWW stepped out of the car to receive the award.

Award was paid by WWW.

Time. 朋友. Change. Wisdom. 男子汉.

2012-01-05T10:06:00.000-08:00

Time.

Yeah, thought its time to have a new look and .. something else x )

the past year has gone by pretty slow and mellow, nonetheless this year will be much slower and tough.

when times are trying, time goes by slower - for wa.

working with my family now, something unplanned and unthought of in the pass. as situation changed, whats left is to decide whats best for the future. Many things have been through my mind, most of them are simply thoughts and deep ponderings - sometimes its not good to know too much if we are powerless about it.

朋友.

You feel that people or friends change especially when they are at the peak of their career, their pride change as well.

Feels like you're talking to a stranger, or someone else. Its different when old frens who had not contacted at all met up, compared to those who have changed so much in their pride.

On what terms do most regard others as friends:

1) Communicating frequencies (lol something i dont always do good thing still have friends x ))

2) Status and background (something i cant relate at all - ask them go die)

3) Race and religion (hmm.. yeah i can understand the tension)

4) Cultural (Unless theres cultural breakthrough? and some open minded people)

5) Earning power and spending power (cant relate at all why cant yamcha together, unless if its beckams and royalty 啦, so wut if you buy genuine prada or LV like buy bread)

6) Outward appearances (wide topic)

8) sooooo much more...

Does friendship requires terms and condition? Friendship is free as a child but not when we are adults. It can be easy though by stripping off all the terms and conditions, but need to beware of people who likes to take advantage, or simply harmful people. Just need to gear up a kid at heart, a wise sensible mind, and a good soul.

Change.

Greed for money and cravings for more earning power and status can change a person, some to an extend of destroying oneself. It really makes you think: "Was this the same person i know?" "Why are you so different, its as if i dont know you anymore".

Rather, i suppose everyone changes, when they are tested, tormented, lured, tempted, provoked and forced on something. Do we pass the test as a person with a sturdy mind and character?

Need to be more self conscious to gain more wisdom, and stay humble.

Its worth sacrificing certain things for better gain, some others are not worth no matter how luring and beneficial it may seem.

Wisdom.

wisdom reminds me of a moral value "respect the old".

Somehow this is only applicable for "respectable adults".

How many respectable adults are there? Its hard to respect adult nowadays, they seriously cant act tall and high expecting total respect from young ones - maybe only mutual respect. It takes so much to be full grown adult (body mind soul), need a lot of hard work to be one.

男子汉.

Do they exist? Or is it a myth. Warriors in the past, highly respectable men with dignity and virtue, loyal and has strong chain of brotherhoods, men who keep their promises and mean all the words they say, bold and brave men, do they really exist? Somehow you cant find one on earth but on chinese legends and stories.

Pictures of guinea pigs.
By the way, we have decided to inscribe "Guinea & Hedgy" "Hedgy & Guinea" on our wedding rings! nyohohoho.

Doing random tests again

2011-09-26T03:03:00.000-07:00

WOO.

1. Paranoid 66%
2. Schizoid 54%

3. Avoidant 50%

Randomly stumbled upon mikes blog. and did these general tests. xD

Personality Disorder Test Results

Paranoid	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	66%
Schizoid	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	54%
Schizotypal	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	34%
Antisocial	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	34%
Borderline	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	38%
Histrionic	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Narcissistic	\|\|\|\|\|\|	26%
Avoidant	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Dependent	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	34%
Obsessive-Compulsive	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	34%

Take Free Personality Disorder Test
Personality Test by SimilarMinds.com

Test Note: Read the descriptions below to avoid misinterpreting test results (for example, the Antisocial classification does not mean you are a loner, it means you tend to be insensitive towards others).
General Note: the validity and reliability of personality disorders are still lacking in strong statistical evidence and clear agreement in the scientific and medical community.
Author Note:I don't think Schizoid personality is a valid disorder (read), some of the smartest people in history were schizoid because they occupied a remote end of the intelligence bell curve. Schizotypal personality can encompass highly original thinkers as well as totally insane people so I think it's a flawed type. I think the remaining eight disorders are generally valid.

Disorder Info

Eccentric Personality Disorders: Paranoid, Schizoid, Schizotypal

Individuals with these disorders often appear odd or peculiar.

Paranoid Personality Disorder - individual generally tends to interpret the actions of others as threatening.Schizoid Personality Disorder - individual generally detached from social relationships, and shows a narrow range of emotional expression in various social settings.
Schizotypal Personality Disorder - individual is uncomfortable in close relationships, has thought or perceptual distortions, and peculiarities of behavior.

Dramatic Personality Disorders: Antisocial, Borderline, Histrionic, and Narcissistic

Individuals with these disorders have intense, unstable emotions, distorted self-perception, and/or behavioral impulsiveness.

Antisocial Personality Disorder - individual shows a pervasive disregard for, and violation of, the rights of others.

Borderline Personality Disorder - individual shows a generalized pattern of instability in interpersonal relationships, self-image, and observable emotions, and significant impulsiveness.

Histrionic Personality Disorder - individual often displays excessive emotionality and attention seeking in various contexts. They tend to overreact to other people, and are often perceived as shallow and self-centered.

Narcissistic Personality Disorder - individual has a grandiose view of themselves, a need for admiration, and a lack of empathy that begins by early adulthood and is present in various situations. These individuals are very demanding in their relationships.

Anxious Personality Disorders: Avoidant, Dependent, Obsessive-Compulsive

Individuals with these disorders often appear anxious or fearful.

Avoidant Personality Disorder - individual is socially inhibited, feels inadequate, and is oversensitive to criticism

Dependent Personality Disorder - individual shows an extreme need to be taken care of that leads to fears of separation, and passive and clinging behavior.

Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder - individual is preoccupied with orderliness, perfectionism, and control at the expense of flexibility, openness, and efficiency.

6PM & Cheers

2011-08-27T10:14:00.000-07:00

So its 6PM now, while the other side of my world - my birth place, is 1AM, a 7 hours in advance compared to the current time being.

Here i am...
and there goes the clock ticking...
while the sky starts to get darker...
this rare piece of silence is good and real.
I like the countryside after all.

Reminds me of my childhood...
Trees and friends...
Also where the air is fresher...
and you can hear the neighbors...
just being themselves and not the other...

How did i get myself into all these...?
I cant imagine it myself...
Do i like it this way...?
I guess yes i do...

Haven't you wanted something else?
Well i must believe so, but this is good too...
I would say...
this is what ive chosen, and its not too bad...
after all, im pretty easy going.
and it cant be the worst thing goin'.

Cheers to life.

Used to think jackets are cool things to wear.
I still think they are!

2011-08-12T06:05:00.000-07:00

事情知道太多未必是好事，最难过关的，还是自己。
当无知又无法过自己那关 - 怎么办？

到了今天，只好祈祷期望神能给力量和耐力。
只能等待，和忍耐。
教我怎么解决问题吧。

airasia travel insurance

2011-07-19T00:10:00.000-07:00

I js found out the flight insurance only covered to a maximum of 31 days (did not state CLEARLY online but in the pdf file sent to me). called, and ask WHY there was no information regarding change of policy (my insurance was covered last year and my trip was 1 1/2 months!). i felt robbed by airasia for not being case sensitive to their customers. why provide the insurance panel if my booking time has exceeded 31 days! after the call, i was given a case reference number and a person (Kate/Cat) in charge to update on the case. On the other hand, the guy, Mr. Eng is good at customer service *****, if you want comment or complain can look for him.

On the next update, if their gona give me lame excuses about customer responsibility for "not reading" the freaking LONG insurance policy, and i HAD A CHOICE NOT TO click the button. im ready to give a long telling off abt the responsibility they, on the other hand, lack to provide - whoever victim is on the phone, probably Ms. Kate/Cat. so yeah pls be informed this year onwards the maximum coverage for airasia international flight is 31 days.

In cases like this, i js want to be insured since i have a connecting flight back to my hometown. i dont mind adding on money to get an extension (if possible). its not a big deal causing real harm, you can buy it elsewhere anytime since i doubt they will bother anyway since it costs only RM50.00. however, its js NOT the kind of misinformation you want. travel insurance wei! mari beli insurance. *suda beli*. oh sorry inda bole pakai suda ya...... sebab kau inda baca tu .. kertas. sheeessssshhh!

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On the bright side, ive found some awesome pictures of guinea pig costumes. :D D

Cute felt made hairband.

Pikachu! who'd knw they'd look good in the costume! : DDDD

Aha.

2011-06-16T09:33:00.000-07:00

in this messed up mind of mine,
some tingling senses within me triggered a sensation similar to when i was aged between 4-8 years old.
That was the last time i had them, or so i thought.
i dont like it, i never did, and i still do not find it ever pleasing.
with some effort, i breathed and forced a smile to overcome the odd and uncomfortable senses away.
it worked well, as it always had.
Have you felt this sensation before?
It contains a mixture of sudden & uncomfortable shame, guilt, nakedness, hollowness, isolation and sadness welling inside the stomach, slowly consuming my pride and dignity.
its still a mystery to me, i never knew what it was -
something appearing so silently when im all by myself.

----V.K
----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

anyway,
going to kl tomorrow >: D
after such a long time, im going to take the LRT once again xD 亲切感。
js wana say thanks for providing a place to stay.
you are one amazing person with great inspiration.
with no doubt i do feel both impressed and envious for your achievements, capability and personality at this age - its a great source of inspiration *shining eyes*.
now and again, i always thought its weird, the thing we have between us.
there never was much time spent between us, yet somehow we knew each other, quite differently from the others.
its normal to have other people who will come by later on, and suddenly you knew that person is different. and i hope till then, we are still able to continue joking about the latest silly things around.
in the near future, we will definitely lead contrasting lives.
where ever we are, wishing us the best in whatever decisions we have made.

alright.
Whats after KK is UK.
all the best to me xD aaaahhh hopefully the meeting with the UK embassy will go smoothly. and will be able to be there. hmmmmmm T_T

LOCATION: LONDON

these coins were nothing but coins totaled up to roughly RM60.00.

was surprised for a while back then.

thick and heavy coins. but i like it. feels that it has higher value.

I MUST GO BACK. Ripleys believe it or nottttt museum. i didnt manage to go in.

tinggi tau. and there are one or two more shorter ones later on.

so you can imagine js how underground is their lrt is.

very very big church. my camera wasnt able to capture all of it.

below shows a diagram of the whole building.

read and feel how old the building is. imagine how they build it! oyeah, click it to read the whole thing.

the humans are so so small. the church must the grandest of all buildings in the past. its is so well preserved. more than castles. or maybe coz castles were destroyed during war to resemble victory? not sure.

tourists and locals visiting and having a picnic.

you see those ppl with white hats?

they were walking around london wearing those,

looking cold with no expression.

i approached one of the girls there asking her whats the occasion,

she stood as steady as a rock, ignoring me.

i felt offended dunno why.

maybe coz shes a teenager.

and i thought teenagers are supposed to be friendly.

later we found out its a demonstration of dunno what.

they js walk all over london in a single file, with a small gap between them.

then they just pose like that, for a very long time.

and after that, they kept walking until the next posing station.

hm.

this time im going to UK for 2 1/2 months.

def gain weight.

and its going to be cold since its going to be the end of summer and approaching autumn! O_O

Picure below

just nearby David's town:

below are a lot of birds warming their feet on a roof. find it really cute xD

we are from crap sch

2011-06-03T11:49:00.000-07:00

Ven says:
thisss
the intervieww
AHHH
a ADULT.
shes not A KIDS
KID
u talk like this when ur 10 year old?
MAN

Humpty Dumpty was PUSHED says:
lol

Ven says:
u watching it?

Humpty Dumpty was PUSHED says:
she was probably spoilt
lol

Ven says:
why?

Humpty Dumpty was PUSHED says:
hmm
shes gifted
high iq?
usually the kids that have high IQ are like that

Ven says:
the way she choose the words to describe things herself,

Humpty Dumpty was PUSHED says:
in music
yeah

Ven says:
im impressed with her describing and explaining things.
its beyond her age.

Humpty Dumpty was PUSHED says:
yeah

Ven says:
her expression and so on.

Humpty Dumpty was PUSHED says:
kids learn a lot

Ven says:
body language.

Humpty Dumpty was PUSHED says:
if wud like our kids to have good education

Ven says:
LOL

Humpty Dumpty was PUSHED says:
crap school = crap outlook

Ven says:
hm.
im from semi crap sch
loll

Humpty Dumpty was PUSHED says:
lol

Ven says:
what abt u

Humpty Dumpty was PUSHED says:
im from crap school too
lol

My latest Post

2011-05-29T10:13:00.000-07:00

i tried playing abt on the Labels, which i just found out how to use it.
i ended up labeling my previous posts thinking it was cool.
BUT my latest post seemed to go backwards in line.
so anyway, this is my latest post.

http://venetiakhong.blogspot.com/2011/05/zz.html

i regretted playing about with the labels.

REPOST: I REALLY REGRETTED IT

REPOST: I FEEL SO UNORGANIZED!!

ps:
i have always thought of changing a new layout.
Now it is time.
zazazazazazazazazazaazaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

2011-05-29T10:03:00.000-07:00

"Sometimes."

"If."

"Or."

"Why Me?"

These are little words that thrusts through various weakened hearts.

"Who do you think you are?"

"Remember, dont embarass me in public"

"You are a no one"

These are the sentences that broke many hearts, destroyed many lives.

_______________________________________________________________

Many cant see,

for they dont seek whats more than the surface of the smiles that many faked,

just to be accepted or survive.

________________________________________________________________

If there is a black hole for rent,

many people would have bought it and place it at their homes.

Each family needs it anyhow.

________________________________________________________________

Who am i?

Hands lifting up high,

looking into what we call 'Heaven',

Singing along with the winds,

as nature plays and dances in Haven.

The voices broke through lives walls,

down they came, as the sign of freedom,

Upon their feet ever joyous and trill,

Running towards their long awaited Kingdom.

I opened my eyes,

withdrew my hands from the sky.

i know im still in denial,

from the person who lives within my mind.

-VK

zz.

2011-05-29T09:17:00.000-07:00

sometimes it takes a reaaaaally long time to understand, what really is to love, and to love with all your heart.

i need a break, i need more genuine people in my life.
it doesnt feel good to have these dark auras luring about, nearly forcing my hands to do the dirty job.

revenge is so so so just so easy.

really, in the end, i look at the mirror and told myself,
"i have a problem myself to feel this way, to feel hatred, revengeful and jealousy. all i need to do is to omit these and i could feel a lot better. screw that person i dont want to be part of their characteristic issues and problem. they can be as problematic as they want, but it wont affect me".

Deal with urself first, before letting things go.

".preparation" (dont read if eating)

2011-05-20T10:39:00.000-07:00

really cant wait to be on the boat.

nearly forgotten its important to prepare everything needed for the journey later.

".preparation"

forgotten preparation requires patience ohm.

anyway.

been sick the past week.

duno whats wrong. read about crohn's disease. maybe and i hope its not it.

been having rather, not all, similar symptoms.

probably had the most toilet case in my life - 6/7 visits to the toilet, with various stool formations.

googled and braved myself to digest various stool knowledge and information, which ended up quite surprisingly interesting (tho a wee bit gross).

conclude: stool knowledge is a must-know!

as for stools, i guess basically just need to watch out blackish and reddish, or mucus covered stool.

its a sign for colon disease/cancer.

ok,

next sickness since the past week.

feeling cold now and then.

sweating and shivering in an enclosed room (no air con no nothing).

body heat rising now and then.

sweating more than usual.

fever comes and go.

flu now and then.

swollen eyes now and then.

fatigue attacks in alternate days.

red eyes.

mild migraines.

thus resulting in emotional and mental stress.

WHATS WRONG.

anyhow.

feeling slightly better now, after the 6/7 visits to mr.toilet.

tho am experiencing some form of pain and soreness in the intestines.

i guess ill resort to have more natural and healthy food.

ive been eating crapish unhealthy food the past month

so the results are obvious.

i need proper food.

summer beach

eating burger at beach to warm myself up

view from train to cardiff city.

hedgy doing devotion

their ticket fare are based on peak or not peak time.i think off peaks are cheaper than high peaks.

in the train

the table seats in the train

country view in south wales

taken in Bath

duckies : )

cute guinea pig

a type pf chicken that looks posh

a kind of breed of something. lamb? goat?

sheeps on mountain road

camping step 1 - clear a wide space making sure the ground is not fire friendly.

step 2- enough space, preparations for the woodblocks/fire food.

step 3 -

arrange the fire food making sure the fire burns and spreads evenly, as well as finding rocks for fire barriers.

if desire to cook with the fire, find a solid flat rock beside it.

step 3a -

ppl standing beside looking at the guy starts preparing food making sure everything is synchronized.

step 3b -

: ) fire time.

step 4 -

observe fire spread and burning speed and area,

adjust the logs and woods for desired fire quality.

add more fire food is necessary.

Step 5 -

cooking! yes we fried some corned beef and sandwiches of it.

yummy is cooking!

stir stir stir

We had dessert. Cooked some custard sauce.

custard and chocolate pudding!

ok. see ya.

远方的归家

2011-05-15T07:21:00.000-07:00

所谓的私人空间和自己的日常生活，距离不能相差太远。

发现最近的自己越来越快忘记自我，漂流着，漂流走，不知不觉到了远方。

真的快不行了。

赶快回到原位吧。

回到自己的窝，

找回自我。

Tears

2011-05-14T07:43:00.000-07:00

Tears.

So many reasons for a tear to form, too many reasons to represent.

Some tears are shed in the heart, unseen, unknown, forever.

Maybe 'til one day, when a new story is unfold, understood and known,

Will the tear shed to light, a smile is shown in Heaven.

对自己的满足感

2011-04-13T09:23:00.000-07:00

今晚过得特别美好，
原来做人还会有这种感觉。

其实自己都忘了曾经有这种满足感-想当年～中学时代，都很时常有这个经验。
哇～实在是太好了。
感觉好像整个人复活起来，未来在等着我那样咯

终于觉得像人多点－都几舒服一下下。

ｉｔｓ　ｇｏｏｄ　ｔｏ　ｆｅｅｌ　ｙｏｕｎｇ　ａｇａｉｎ

Bon Voyage!

2011-04-10T08:01:00.000-07:00

Adulthood, such a challenging voyage.

Adulthood is so much different, compared to a childhood.
As a young adult, ive finally seen how important it is to have a good childhood.
also,
its so important to remain as childlike as we can be.
Being an adult can be challenging,
yet on the other hand, it has so much of a dark side, compared to a childhood.

I admire children for their innocence and faith.
For those are what most adults will eventually forget or loose.

Innocence is so precious and pure, that it creates an effortless smile on a child.
while most adults have to make an effort to smile, or need a reason or two to fake one.
some adults have lost their smile, some cant find the strength to smile anymore.

Innocence also creates mutual trust and faith.
Adults do not have such secure feelings compared to children.
some have forgotten how to trust and believe in hope.

The world of a child is so much more beautiful.
containing hope and love, joy and courage.
As an adult, we can be afraid to accept or be one
that provides hope and love, joy and peace.
For betrayal lurks everywhere. or maybe sharks
awaiting for the right moment and advantage to attack.

its good to have children around,
it reminds you the very basic things needed for a human being.
Love and joy, food and clothing.
It brings an adult down to the earth/ basics.
children does not need materialism to feel happy.
they js need their parents around. and maybe some ice-cream and a bus trip.

some times, we may have think we have gotten strong and more experienced in life.
but in fact, we have gotten weaker and weaker forgetting whats the most important and precious in life.
we have forgotten the most simple things in life is enough to enlighten our minds.

It is in fact so hard,
to have a childlike mind, and a childlike faith.
i wonder if its possible to be wise, plus having some childlike characteristics.

2011-03-19T03:46:00.000-07:00

ate keropok and felt a lil sickly - feeling a bit anti keropok now.

anyway, had a random chat with David about Christian music in this modern world.
and agreed the lyrics in this song are still relevant to this day until the end of age, as a wake up call for Christians.
in this age, everything has become so materialistic and beautiful,
that we get confused with what really is the most beautiful.
written by Matt Redman.

HEART OF WORSHIP

Verse 1:
When the music fades
All is stripped away
And I simply come
Longing just to bring
Something that's of worth
That will bless Your heart

Bridge:
I'll bring You more than a song
For a song in itself
Is not what You have required
You search much deeper within
Through the way things appear
You're looking into my heart

Chorus:
I'm coming back to the heart of worship
And it's all about You,
It's all about You, Jesus
I'm sorry, Lord, for the thing I've made it
When it's all about You,
It's all about You, Jesus

Verse 2:
King of endless worth
No one could express
How much You deserve
Though I'm weak and poor
All I have is Yours
Every single breath

on another note,

i guess if the world starts to take things simple,

there are so many things which we will realise, tht we have wasted so much of our time on pursuing.

are the things we are pursuing now worth it?

2011-03-08T23:48:00.000-08:00

So

i

wonder

how

to

increase

my

concentration

power.

DRAW

PLAN

ZA

ME

YAO

NA

ME

JIU

MEH!

DAI

MAN

LAH!

HAIH

BEH

TA

HAN

WA!

Realities

2011-02-17T07:08:00.000-08:00

Life, such a big word, such a vast mystery, how many are able to grasp and live it through?

Life, So much histories, myths and stories, which one of them are true?

Without Life, we can't Live, more than just living, what really is - life?

i guess this poem could speak for a whole storyline in my head.

there are many, that mankind ought to gain, which cant be seen with the naked eye, thus leaving many remained unseen.

are mankind all that hardened and blind to feel almost nothing at all?

hm.

humanity needs some good washing.

~~is anyone willing to sacrifice pride, deceit in order to gain truth?~~

is anyone willing to let down garments and expose shame to Him?

New Year (again)

2011-01-02T09:22:00.000-08:00

its new year again, and its a time to stop and think at some point in life.
so..
im 23 this year.

~~old.~~
older.

its good.
must say im missing quite a few friends now. hope everyone is well and good.
another few more years my wrinkles will arrive, remain and grow. so.. need to cherish my youth and start searching for good products.

no specific new year resolution.

looking back though, it was alright.
ups and downs. black and white. raining or not.
here i am.
in the end, i only hope for His grace and mercy.

about animals..

i wannnnn guinea pig in the future.

and hedgehoggg

weeeee wait till i can afford n care for u guys. wohoho.

Hugh Hefner

2011-01-02T04:13:00.000-08:00

So they tied the knot - Hugh Hefner 84 & Crystal Harris 24. no explanation required, the knot is no doubt for the novelty and glamor, benefiting both career people. Hugh Hefner is an American Magazine publisher, founder and CEO of Playboy Enterprises. So he's ur type of guy who only goes out with 15 girlfriends parading beside him.

my usual sudden-curiosity sparked, and i did some research on this man, Hugh Hefner.

to cut the long story short,
it broke my heart to know something about his past.

"Hefner married Northwestern University student Mildred Williams in 1949. They had two children, Christie (born November 8, 1952) and David (born August 30, 1955).^[16] Before the wedding, Mildred confessed that she had had an affair while he was away in the Army; he called the admission "the most devastating moment of my life." A 2006 E! True Hollywood Storyprofile of Hefner revealed that Mildred allowed him to sleep with other women, out of guilt for her infidelity and in the hopes that it would preserve their marriage. They divorced in 1959.
Hefner remade himself as a bon vivant and man about town, a lifestyle he promoted in his magazine and two TV shows he hosted, Playboy's Penthouse (1959–1960) and Playboy After Dark (1969–1970). He admitted to being "'involved' with maybe eleven out of twelve months' worth of Playmates" during some of these years.^[17] Donna Michelle, Marilyn Cole, Lillian Müller, Shannon Tweed, Brande Roderick, Barbi Benton, Karen Christy, Sondra Theodore, and Carrie Leigh—who filed a $35 million palimony suit against him—were a few of his many lovers. In 1971, he acknowledged that he experimented in bisexuality.^[18] He moved from Chicago to Los Angeles."

from wikipedia... not sure how accurate the information is.
anyway,
ive always thought men can be terrible for being playboys/womanizer.
it nvr occur to me one of the causes may be from women itself.
similar to women, may have got their fragile hearts broken by men and then ... who knows what they choose to go eventually.

hm.
just be clever and wise i guess. life is not a test.
True love is lasting, but only if our heart is pure. Pursue genuineness in whatever we do lest we forgot who we are.
wud be nice if i could have a chat with this man. *curiosity still on* >:D lol.

words in fatigue

2010-10-03T07:42:00.000-07:00

i guess there are times when you are feeling tired,

u will start to think and realize life is worth it.

there are also moments where its possible to scream another world out from within, in order to stabilize ur sanity.

nonetheless,

when im tired, i'll start pondering - basically about my life and life itself.

for now,

i have finally found time for myself to sit down and do something that i wanted to do - something ive learnt how to cherish.

yes, im feeling somewhat tired & weary physically & mentally, of doing things that are not related to my desires.

as i pondered,

ive learnt some things we do in life are not based on what we like or want to do.

some decisions made are based on responsibilities which are made for us to carry, thus we live through it.

whether we end up a happy being or not, it depends entirely on how u choose to live ur life.

responsibilities are always ready like an emergency alarm, alerting u anytime in any day.

its impossible for a person to live with no responsibilities to bear.

as i ponder along about life, the world is actually a lot bigger than what our eyes could perceive.

i have so much in mind i want to do, which i dont think i could achieve all of them in my lifetime.

there are too many questions to ask, im sure not all of them could be answered before i reach my deathbed.

life is a mystery.

i must say i believe in the existence of a Creator, cause human beings are just a lil too complicated to be created through an accident.

that creator is a bit scary i must say. since we could see beyond what our eyes can, what more can a creator see?

i dont know. js like anyone out there, im still searching and waiting. my instinct (or something else) is telling me life is not as simple as it seems. human beings are more than what they think they are. im still looking for answers which are more in depth and concrete to finally be able to stand firm.

btw, my dinner - cha sao chicken is great today.

The Sixth Station by Joe Hisaishi

2010-09-22T19:56:00.000-07:00

自从UK回来后，

整个人都变得很烦好累。

原来选择不简弹。

随然都在前一个月左右都决定了，

其实我一至到昨天晚上才真实的把这件事实消化

- 今早在巴士里想，“大该是消化完了。。？”

其时，都还没消化完呢。

自己是知道这是最完美的决定。

而且也不会让自己后悔气馁的那种。

或许因为是不想放开在吉隆坡的生活，

可能也是因为不想面对家乡四周围的压力。

想了又判断，

其实很显而易见 - 因为在害怕，

所以不想放开和面对一切。

这几天听的都是同样的歌首（题目），

仿佛自己的身体刻意的让自己麻木起来

- 不想知道，已也不想感觉。

总知还好，另一半的我明白知道：

“ 这才是生活的开始噢k”

无论如何，

我终于可以笑了 - 就算是一点点也好那也算是个开始。

以后还是不要麻木得太久。坏习惯。

Green fields roll and roll.

2010-09-16T08:16:00.000-07:00

green field here i fly into ur embrace.
its only in your way, thats my game.
sing my day, make my day.
catch me, as i run.

Counting Days

2010-09-16T02:56:00.000-07:00

Time ticks sings and dances 'round n 'round.
oh well its time where we sit down and paint the imaginary sky.
think about it how many times have u danced in the rain.
or how many stars have tinkled dark at night.

rain rain please rain so everything will start afresh.
rain rain go away i hate it when it rains.
rain o rain why dont u come so i can paint the sky again.

tinkle tinkle litter star how i wish u didnt come into my sky.
tinkle tinkle i thought i heard tinkling, oh, it ws only a sound in my mind.
what? it really tinkles! no wait. oh. its only a sound in my mind.

Day in day out rain n stars come and go but they are js a cycle
of what belongs to mother earth. sing lets sing rain and twinkle stars.

A Sunday ittis.

2010-07-29T14:18:00.000-07:00

It WAS a Sunday i mean.

so i went to church with David's mother and aunt. and yes, churches there are real old church buildings from books and magazines u normally see and then wow at. lemme give u a general notion of what a church is in Britian. A church is a smaller looking cathedral. only a city could afford to have a cathedral. a cathedral can be so big that u feel so small and plain coz of the design and size of it. a poorer church would look less decorated and theres nothing much to look at but stoned walls and some wooden structures. i would talk more about cathedrals and churches another time coz i would prefer to talk while showing some pics to provide a better picture of what i have seen and experianced in these historical buildings.

Pictures below is where David's mother's go to every Sunday, Anglican church naming Christ Church. The church is built in the early or late 1800 sorry i forgot. these are some pics to show u what a normal church is in Wales. Although, there are smaller and less decorated church around depending on the economic status of the area.

u can estimate the height of the building now then,

a cathedral is 2-3 times the height. makes u understand

how important a church/cathedral is last time.

the glass window.

the inner court or something. its a more private place.

the communion table.

these glass windows are namely the book of the poor.

coz last time ppl cant afford books. so these glass windows

are specially done for them to remember stories from the Bible.

so yeah.

thats about it for a church.

i will go to a deeper level next time of what a cathedral is.

and hopefully with more pictures.

...

(sudden depression attack as being reminded of the lost 600 pics

which also contain detailed pics of churches and cathedral)

...

so anyway.

after church,

we went back and had an afternoon meal in David's grandma's house.

which they have it every week, as a reunion where David's granma will cook for everyone.

and this was what we had,

baked beef with 3 servings of vegetables.

theres cauliflower, peas, carrots and potatoes and lastly

baked beef poured on with beef stock.

i like my food with mustard.

and this mustard was what they used.

this brand is not very good with barbeque stuff.

kills all the barbeque taste and smell. wooh!

and finally.

dessert.

im telling u.

i nvr had so much desserts in my life.

so yeah this is one of the desserts they have here,

in this family.

im not very sure what other family serve for dessert tho.

this is actually a tesco brand cake.

it costs 3pounds. around RM15.00 for the current value.

not bad really!

cake in French is ghetto!

"would you like some ghetto?"

ghetto and cream it is.

they like to add cream into any dessert ive eaten with them so far.

last but not least,

i got a pair of indoor shoes from David's granma's friend, aunty Binny.

she doesnt use em shoes anymore coz her hands does not permit it thus she bought

a more user friendly pair instead.

she told me she doesnt use it anymore and asked me whether would i like to have it.

so i js accepted her kindness.

it was unexpected and im starting to like it coz its convinient to have it to warm ur feet indoors.

in UK,

my feet is size 4?5-6.

in Malaysia, its

size 7-8.

orite.

thats all for now.

see ya!

Have fun ya those who are going to Taiwan x)

what happened last night ..

2010-07-23T04:57:00.000-07:00

everyone is bound to have those technical problems where they loose their data's.

lost 600/1000 pics taken from everywhere in wales and bristol. last night was stuck whether to get mad at myself or the lap top or the phone - i still dono what to get mad at. *sighing ends over the decease of my precious pics*goes down and have breakfast forcing herself to start the day anew*

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that happened when i decided to update my blog. and then i need to transfer some pics.

i had problems with the bluetooth so i thought ahh js transfer all of them into the lap top la.

then i copy paste. as usual. and thought its taking longer than usual. maybe its normal since its 1000 pics altogether about 2mb each.

after that its done transfering.

i decided to delete the pics in the phone. and i did. but it lags for a while and then tells me theres an error.so i canceled the deletion of the pics.

the rest is history, when i found out i only have 400 pics transfered to my lap top. while ALL the pics are deleted in my phone. so that was how i lost 600 precious pics everywhere in wales and bristol. mostly architecture, ppl, and sceneries. i mind the pics gone coz of the detail of the pics i took. i took each meal i had, each weird flower or insects i saw, unseen cheeses, shoplot styles and facades, unseen culture, the moment of the sky with her clouds and her siblings the mountains trees and grass, the tiles of old places which dates back to 300-900 years ago,... etc.

aih.

so there is goes.

gone. my memory is vague as well. but oh well.

after whining since last night, and David comfort until got nothing else to say. i thought. aih. js digest it venetia and get some more pictures in the remaining time u have in wales this year.

sorry i js had to say this out lol js like jasmine yii said "js blog it to feel better!" coz of something happened last time but ive forgotten about the situation.

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what i wanted to post last night
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Title: Oh, aye?
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hello and im still in uk adapting to ... uk.

lets js say everything is different in every way.

the 'rumor' is in fact true~~~ about british likes tea.

they drink tea so many times a day, hungry or not, thirsty or not, they still ask:

"do u wanna-cuppa tea?" so many times that i think...

it will take me some time to get used to it by the time i go back to malaysia for not hearing that phrase until i go back to uk again.

lol.

the house im currently living drinks tea from a cup with a saucer underneath. and its weird to not have the saucer underneath eventhough u want to eliminate the saucer coz it makes another item to wash. if its ten cups that will make ten more items to wash. anyhow, those are the cups u use to drink tea where ur last finger sticks out js like the british ppl from the story book. xD

oh.
in relation to the title, 'oh, aye?', its simply their slang.
if u really agree with something, u would say: "oh, aye, aye~"
or really agreeing by disagreeing with something: "aye, aye!!"
or it means yes/ya, :"aye, that man is really talented he is."

he is is another way of talking by the welsh. they have a way to emphasis the things they wanna say at the end of the sentence, for example,

"he's hungry he is."

"he really gets on my nerves look!"

"he prefers blue mind."

"that food is hot mind."

"ill be there in a minute now!"

some other slang are:

"Who's coat is this jacket?"

"o'rite butt?" (are you ok?)

so u see, most of the time, i cant click with the older generation (his granma) coz my malaysian rojak slang isnt understandable so i need an interpreter - David. but overall i have to speak in a more english-understood manner as an alternative slang so i could be understood better.

welsh ppl are definitely a whole new culture.

purple interesting plant

bread shop

brown and blue dragonfly. feels sorry to invade their privacy.

david trying to lure the ducklings. sadly we dont have any bread for them.

their coke is 3 litre each.

one of the road signs that is for walking.

pizzaa are sold like this tastes js like pizza hut in malaysia.

each is 2 pound, RM 10.00.

something different

another weird sharpy plant.

nope i did not try it. lol. 56p is Rm 2.80.

really big daisies.

(unable to quote food title coz pic got deleted the other one is fish and chips tho)

the remaining stairs of a 700 year old castle.

this plant, is VERY SMELLY. js standing beside it wants to make u run away.

at the beach lol. the seashore is so vast.

it took us a long run back to the 'starting point' when it was raining.

the beach

this is a ball of mashed potato mix corn beef. i like.

raspberry eating while strolling at porthcawl town centre.

ginger bread man - everyday goods.

one of the every goods at Greggs

the beach when the rain was over

bacon and egg ROLL. not burger.

this is called faggots and peas. a traditional food.

it is pork meat mix pork liver. tastes js like homemade burger.

very nice.

they call this weed. i call this flower.

bah.
enough for now "t'ra!" "ta-raaa!"
(i only say "bye!/byeee!" here lol)

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Sunset

2010-07-02T12:40:00.000-07:00

Its rarely in ones life where situations, issues and the stability of the
emotion, mind and soul are at ease of a new coming or a new beginning.
Though problems do still occur around, yet the calmness conquers all.

though fear still creeps and flares around the corner of the mind,
yet the heart knows, it is prepared for it all -
any instability eventually surfaces a new foundation.

The sunset reflects the horizons of the earth.
And so it will forever remain as the twilight of a new beginning, forever more.

A Moment Taken into Reading of Materials from My Younger Years

2010-06-29T16:19:00.000-07:00

Before taking off into the 'other land',(KL).
I suddenly want to 're-visit' my past.

and i did, just like eveyrtime i come back to KK every year.

this time however, i was filled with a whole different experiance.
i was also shocked of who i was as a teenager and thought i couldnt read further more.
i changed my mind later on thinking its important to observe my growth as a teenager.

...(moments later)...

after having waves of shocks one after the other, ive decided to stop my reading and thought it was so childish, idiotic, blunt in a sad way, stupid, naive, obssessed and very utterly blind.

On the other hand,
i did wanted to find a certain page where i stored my 'most wanted memory' written when i was 16.
yet the mother of 'despair' drowned me as i realised i might have teared and destroyed it along with my 'most trashing memory'. a moment of regrets overwhelmed me even more later when i tried ssearching for my diaries written as a primary school student, but in vain.

What did surprised me was what was in stored in my 16 & 17 years old mind.
i had complains and questions about friendships questioning, "... since time flows by, how real are real friends are?..."
such as there are parts written when was 16 years old stating "... i have financial issues...".
which made me laughed (at myself sarcastically lol).
apart from that, my desire to have in a companion in general is pretty much the same as what i wanted now.

lastly,
my writing was so hideous and its giving me so much stress while reading them.
but my 'writing issue' have improved after my high school years which obviously meant the wordings reflects the progression of my mind.

oh i thought its kinda cool of me to say this: 2/10/05
"...I was thinking what God had blessed me after reading what is mentioned from the "Our daily Bread"
saying count the blessings God has made for you.

I was able to think of one, which i believe it is the most important one.

That God has blessed me with a new day each day.

I find that as the best blessing each day. what is the past is the past. the Lord created the next day for me to live on forgetting what is the past and be advanced in pacing upward front..."

i would like to add on which is,
it is such a blessing each day as well, that God is merciful to let us live and learn more about Him before His vengeance and majesty judges us in time. and to experiance life and gives us the skill to appreciate and love anything we are inclined with.

yep. i do love growing up. coz if not i cant bear to be forever like the person from the diary xD (laughs sarcastically at herself again xD).

i feel so far far away

2010-06-17T06:38:00.000-07:00

from the society
from the internet
from my health
from the sunlight
from the bright sky.

: (

好多了。

2010-05-17T06:56:00.000-07:00

剩下的日子不多。同样的，这烦闷的心灵也未必过得太久了吧。

该放下的就放。

看透了，
听够了，
寂寞的日子已麻木了，
哭完了，
眼泪不再流了，
怕够了。

因为，我累了。

烦够了吗？
那就以这种感觉流出港口出大海。
船过重是走不动的。
一次过把丢完它。

时机到了，要珍‘取’，争气，趁机还有珍惜。

‘人越老，心越宽 ’（慧文的版本）。

注:（不好意思哦，华语很差。‘了’来‘了’去！）

Reading List!

2010-04-29T07:27:00.000-07:00

I crave to read these days more than i did towards food.
i am currently addicted to vocabulary related games; any game related to words injects a certain hype into me.
my mind seem to work differently recently since the past few weeks. .. and i wonder what made that happen.

not sure how long this craving will end.
nonetheless, i'll push myself to read whatever materials that is appealing to me regarding:

1. Philosophy
2. Health
3. History
4. Culture
5. Psychology
6. Novels
7. News
8. Science
9. Nature
10. Mysteries
11. Top 10's
12. Top Weirdest
13. Wonders
14. Kings
15. Politics
16. Princesses
17. Dukes
18. Earls
19. Poems
20. Musicians
21. Stones
22. Clouds
23. Fantasies

and more of the Bible. if i would challenge myself! since the Bible covers a lot of the mentioned categories.

READING IS NEVER ENDINGGGG

this is so exciting!!!!

i should obtain a skill that enables me to read faster in order to read more in this lifetime.

alright. ttyl.

p/s: am considering to start a blog regarding all my dreams.

因为累。

2010-04-26T23:13:00.000-07:00

我好想告诉你们。

但，我能说吗？

不能。

无论如何，都不能。

在多一句都不行。

因为，

我真的累了。

让时间和平静，冲淡一切。

时候到了，我才把故事告诉你们吧。

请放过我，好吗？

我好想一个人。

挺准的心理测验，可以试试。

2010-04-20T06:13:00.000-07:00

心理測驗題目：什麼原因會讓你想哭?排一下自己最易哭的原因! (1是最容易, 5是最不容易)五個選項分別是：a.感動b.傷心c.痛( 是肉體, 不是心靈)d.生氣e.擔心/緊張
排好了嗎？準備看答案囉！請看自己把該選項排在第幾個順位來找解答喔∼----------------------------------------------------------------
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] 感動：不是跟你很熟的人覺得你是......排在第1 - 一個常常把自己藏起來的人。很有神秘感。不容易接近。排在第2 - 一個很會關心別人的人。很容易發現身邊有人不開心。不會很容易講錯東西或話題。排在第3 - 一個傻傻的人。怪怪的。想做什麼就做什麼。不過很可愛。排在第 4 - 一個不會想﹐老是要人擔心的人。(特別是長輩)排在第5 - 一個很聰明﹐很負責任的領導人。對你很尊敬。

] 傷心：跟你很熟的人覺得你是.....排在第1 - 對很多事都要求很高的人。不過有很多時候都太固執。排在第2 - 可以跟你講道理。黑白之間分辨得很清楚。排在第3 - 心思很細膩的人。很多時候傷心不會表現出來，不過其實大家都看得出來。排在第4 - 會先想很多才會做選擇。不想自己給人看扁,自尊可以算是很強的人。排在第5 - 外剛內柔的人。但其實知道你的內心不是那麼堅強。

] 痛：你想要別人覺得你是......排在第1 - 很需要別人保護的人。排在第2 - 不是那麼容易接近的人。排在第3 - 好人一個。很關心身邊的人。不怕做犧牲的人。排在第4 - 很聰明, 不過又不會驕傲的人。排在第5 - 很清楚自己想什麼要什麼的人。

] 生氣：你最希望你的情人是......排在第1 - 跟你很合拍。你跟他想的東西是一樣,不用問便知道對方要什麼。排在第2 -不會很客易發脾氣。要懂得容忍你。外剛內柔。有自己的性格。排在第3 - 內心是很可愛的一個人。你猜不到下一步他會做什麼。排在第4 -很細心。你需要什麼他都有準備。不會因為很少的東西便找你。排在第5 - 智慧很重要。可以管得到你的人。而且要講道理。

] 擔心/緊張：其實真實的你是......排在第1 - 一個很怕給別人看到自己是什麼樣的人。不喜歡自己性格的人。排在第2 -孤獨的人。很希望可以跟一大堆人在一起。不過很多時候都不知道怎樣跟別人溝通。排在第3 -覺得朋友比天還重要的人。很珍惜身邊很多朋友。敢愛敢恨。不過不喜歡的人你就不會去管..排在第4 -直接的人。很多時候因為這樣的性格跟別人不合。希望有多一點人可以了解你, 特別是你喜歡的人。排在第5 -不是很清楚自己將來要什麼。不過就很幸運的走過半生。不會對很多東西有要求。最重要是可以開心過每一天!

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] 感動：不是跟你很熟的人覺得你是......
排在第1 - 一個常常把自己藏起來的人。很有神秘感。不容易接近。

] 傷心：跟你很熟的人覺得你是.....
排在第2 - 可以跟你講道理。黑白之間分辨得很清楚。

] 痛：你想要別人覺得你是......
排在第5 - 很清楚自己想什麼要什麼的人。

] 生氣：你最希望你的情人是......
排在第3 - 內心是很可愛的一個人。你猜不到下一步他會做什麼。

] 擔心/緊張：其實真實的你是......
排在第4 -直接的人。很多時候因為這樣的性格跟別人不合。希望有多一點人可以了解你, 特別是你喜歡的人。

Someone's Birthday

2010-04-18T05:57:00.000-07:00

Im simply writing this because it is someone's birthday.
i dont do it often. but i thought if the world is gonna end at 2012,
i think its time for me to unpeel my onion self and start revealing certain
layers that are intended or in need to be used for the main dish, which is life itself.
(2012 do create an impact on me after all)

alright~. here we go.

'Someone's' birthday is a female student,
and it has been great knowing such a person as her,
whom living abundantly in life for herself and for others.
i do learn a lot from her as well, from her perspectives of life
and personal intuition of life's obstacles.
she has a warm heart, soft inner voice, though with very loud eyes and voice
exteriorly.

she sings of songs that i could not stand,
which are frm a Taiwan group formed by 3 female singers naming, 'S.H.E'.
very often i would end up shaking my head in a slow and tiresome manner
and starts to complain the songs after that.
that was when we were roommates. probably the best roommate i've had so far
(nothing much to count really).
anyhow, a weird match.
anyway, often after my complains, she would still stick up to her favourite singers and
starts to criticize the songs i listen to. most of the time, we would end up in laughters.

three years down the line, ive painstakingly learnt to listen a couple of songs from
that particular group. and yes, i meant A COUPLE (only).
and i still do not understand how could she be a fan of that group as
long as since her high school years!
btw, thats still a debate between me and her.
nonetheless, things do change within a time frame of 3 years.
both of us are now able to enjoy certain songs together.
something that i never thought would happen 3 years ago.

what else did i miss out?
oh.

she is generous at heart and possession,
but not in emotion. its similar to everyone, like an onion waiting to
be peeled to serve in this main dish called life. yet,
she is transparent enough for me to feel secure to be her friend.

i like her hardworking, direct and focused personality.
brave and frank, and ... utterly simple minded.
(yes, u own a simple mind, thus the life u reflect)

ok. so enough of her goody things coz its freaking me out.
now, let me think of other things about her.
oh yeah.

if ya gotta knw her, ya gotta be prepared to know that
she can be short-sighted and does not wear her spectacles
(me too - probably thts the only thing similar between us).
so if she walks face to face with u along a road.
there is a high chance of her ignoring u. well of course, its simply
because she was not able to see u.
so what do u do? simply give her a gentle but obvious HELLO,
and she will be able to see u finally.

.....
alright (whoever is reading). i shall dedicate ur time back to ur rightful belonging by ending
with a paragraph/dessert or two(or maybe 4) by presenting u this someone.

so,

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHLOE WONGGGGGGGGG!!!!"

(we r finally same age!i dont feel so old anymore nw :P).

and its weird i dreamt about u on ur birthday.i might have unconsciously remembered it.

overall,

i would like to say,

"thank you for being part of making my life in KL a better place",

a place that i loathe just so much.

if it werent for u (and a few more people), life wouldnt have ever been the same.

who would ever imagine, knowing u would change and

transform so much of my life.

life will change again nonetheless.

who could fathom what will occur along the years?

yet, i treasure the great memories we created together,

and we've seen how much each of us grew out of

the 'high-school-girl'.

i would say, its been a great friendship.
Cheers anybody?

p/s
Mademosielle,
as usual, gambate until u reached ur goal! maybe i'll be waiting in UK to go vacation at Cameron Highland one day :P or wherever 'it' (no name yet) is. btw i hope u took a break for this day.

(erm. this pic.... quite long ady)

Today, and today's ramblings.

2010-03-26T08:16:00.000-07:00

Today-

was the day after i discovered im unaffected by dengi.

was when my body has finally recovered.

was when i planned to start doing my sch work.

yet,

it was also the day where my mind begin to wander and ponder.

i once told myself when i was 15, "u knw what venetia, maybe u should be a philosopher".
the second inner me replied: "there are no philosophers in this modern world"

sadly. there are degrees and masters for such courses - which i only heard not too long ago.

* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *

The day before yesterday -

was when my sickness was in suspicion of dengi with the survival rate of only 50/50percent. The first fifty would determine i would have 3 days left to live, the other fifty would say to me, "you're good to go, hurry on now!".

of course, the thought of losing everything has occurred in my mind, wandering around to ponder issues considering one's lifetime - a daydreaming mode indeed. it normally takes an effort to drag myself back to 'reality' when the routine of day dreaming begins.

would i consider this a waste of time?
most of the time i would reply to my inner self: "no, at all".

just how i wish my mind has a mind of itself to accomplish at all times, striving in my education.
wishful speaking it is.
a decision has made, and it is meant to be accomplished nonetheless, regardless of whatever reasons i could contain myself.

as i told myself in the midst of the dilemma, "is this fear?"

i have understood however, whatever the outcome may be, it would not cause catastrophic situations. With that, i was somehow pretty calm (and sick).

just like any revelation, my mind was beaming and overflowing with informations regarding 'fear' and 'fear' alone.
i had come to realize how close this word is knitted into every human being, and thus transforming them into who they appear to be regardless of the cause and effects on every situation or story behind their past.

fear became one of the main key in the human race where many do not seem to realize. . .

*and the thought goes on.*

God said something similar: "Do not fear,".

at the same time, we fear God for He is who He is.

as a conclusion, i told the sick me: "humanity is a fearful race after all"

it was because they feared, thus:
they accomplish.
they are victorious.
they are wealthy.
they are beautiful and appealing.
they know who they are.

apart of positive outcomes, there are also negative outcomes.
of course, the human race is also knitted with 'overcoming', the source of leading one towards the end of the tunnel.
even so, i would regard 'overcomer' is not as closely knitted as 'fearful' in the human race.

therefore, 'fear' is an interesting topic to ponder more about in the future.

question at the end of the day:
i wonder
what will life be like to only have the fear of God?

* * * * * * * ** * * * * * ** * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *

fuh.
enough ramblings.

-100plus overload-

When the sun rays ...

2010-03-09T03:46:00.000-08:00

dances over my skin.
My senses told me ive finally regained my consiousness.

Scent = immune system = The Right Man/Woman (something good to ponder)

2010-02-26T06:40:00.000-08:00

I would say.

rampage these links.

ppl nowadays are wondering how to find the right person.

but no one ever thought of using one of their 5 senses.
"Smell"

at least i suppose these interesting to find out.
it helps not only to find the right person,
in the future, the children of the couple would have
better immune systems (health).

(looks at self and siblings and would probably agree)

(this is why i love pcychology)

http://news.discovery.com/tech/couples-smell-match.html

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/health/4614842.stm

http://today.msnbc.msn.com/id/22825753/ns/today-today_relationships/

http://news.discovery.com/human/women-perfume-natural-scent.html

They are all established sites and are worth trusting.

enjoy, sip a tea and start reading. :)

===============================================

Speaking of which,

The Pamelo story 1: The Unexpected Encounter #

the moment i met pamelo,
his scent was the first thing that stood out when we first met.
i later found out he doesnt wear perfume.
i thought it might be his hair gel.
hm. but it wasnt after all.
(after smelling his hair - curiosity)

ive told pamelo that he smells like a 'soft toy'.
in return, i was told that i smelled 'kinda sweet'.

however we ourselves could not smell our own scent.

at that point,
no one has told us about the existence of our scents as well.
(which makes ppl ponder)

ive once asked ppl about my scent, the reply i received:

"nope. u dont have a scent".

Pamelo once told me:

"1Corinthians 7:4 says about belonging to each other"

which made me flash back..

so far..

'soft toy' smell is rather distinctive compared to the other scents ive

smell from other guys. (their rooms)

hm. anyway.

my parents asked me when we were in the car.

Day 2 - on the way to dinner

mom: "venetia, whats this vanilla smell"

ven: "huh? u mean his scent?"

mom: "its his scent?"

ven:"i guess so."

Day 7 - on the way to the airport

dad:"venetia, did u put perfume?"

ven:"huh? no. do u mean his scent? he has a strong scent"

dad:"oh."

conclusion:
im glad it is a 'good scent'.
having that its a 'vanilla' & a 'perfume'.

for me,
'its soft toy'.

have a nice day,
and start smelling around xD

an old song.

2010-02-23T07:42:00.000-08:00

the song that has been playing in my head,

and is ending soon.

hopefully, faster that what im predicting.

*feels tired and exhausted*

*prays*

Timeless Ramblings (blank moments)

2010-02-01T02:32:00.000-08:00

Time is too timely to talk about.

time distinguishes seasons, age and growth.

im 22 this year.

i think time passes by too fast now.

im almost a quarter or or a third or half of my total lifespan.

to be honest,

i dread for the time to see wrinkles and white hair,

and losing tooth.

i dread to look at the mirror at the aging and withered me.

i dread too much that i think its so useless.

since when is it so?

since time told me to "start running".

should i pursue

more studies after my degree?

degree in philosophy or psychology?

or is it too late

what ive regret not learning in time,

would be fighting first for myself.

how i wish i could destroy the mirrors,

and let time return me to myself.

but its too late now

Time was never known for mercy.

nor will it ever will.

In contrary,

time is also known for giving chances,

for humanity to look back in order to look forward

to appreciate the essence of living.

SOOO

i gotta start doing my work now anyhow,

anyway, whatever.

*smirks*

i wonder what lies ahead of my future now.

spontaneous like a rubber band,

sting like a bumble bee!"

(simply adapted by McQueen, Cars)

Emo pics

last year as an IAD student

emo pic. (i still think im destinied to be cool!,

but there are ppl saying that im cute. they got something wrong)

on the way to Hatyai!!!

mixed emotions. stressed, depressed

and the same time trying to enjoy and look happy! woo!

Food i had with yvonne and jasmine.

i like this meal.

a mixture of sweet and bitter emotion : )

坚持 - 温力铭

2010-01-13T04:08:00.000-08:00

Perseverance.

Ive heard many people shared their stories,

experiances and opinions regarding this word

in order to inspire and built the people they care.

Ive heard,

but could not embrace towards that part of their lives.

nor did it affected my life as much as it did to theirs.

However, this guy, a Malaysian star have made it so clear,

to an extend where i wan to share it to whoever is reading this blog.

坚持，
一个人可不可以到达他一直美梦以求的地带就是要看他自己的坚持有多强。
坚持是包括定力，责任感，不放弃，用功和信心。

没有定力的人没有可能成材。
没有责任感，根本不能做大事。
容易放弃，失败者的特色和优点。不用追求梦想啦。浪费大家时间。
懒惰的人永远诸多借口。
对自己缺乏信心，为何追求梦想？

做每一件事都必定会遇到种种的考验和问题。
反正都明白这个道理了，又何必为了那些’问题‘ 搞坏自己的心情呢？
烦也会发生，不烦也会发生。就不用浪费时间去生气吧。

妈妈一直教我，
做人做事要有始有终。
不是’大窝‘到就啪个屁股走人。
害了那些一起陪伴你拼命的同胞。
走掉了这一round换回来的跟吃亏。

坚持的人，就算多么的苦，多么的掺。。如果走对了而且走下去。我相信
换回来的比自己想像中跟精彩。。

爆烧肉们。。加油吧 .

http://onelikming.com/

He is onelikming, a Malaysian singer and writer.

good good.

i did not understand the last sentence. sounds like food.

but anyway. a good inspiration for a time like this! (submission date is only 5 days away)

dai ga, ga yao!

Recomposition

2009-12-17T01:49:00.000-08:00

Sometimes there are things that you wish you hadnt knew.

it would probably lead to more despair and sorrow.

confusion and anger.

Sometimes we just wished life's a stage, we are the performers.

when the show ends, it ends.

nothing more, nothing less.

nothing changes, nothing matters.

Sometimes looking at the palm of my hands makes me wonder,

how much am i made for in this life.

how much could i understand, how much i will know.

after knowing so, what will be needed to do,

what will determine the security of the future.

Sometimes we let fear crowd our mind,

quenching peace, focus and trust that we used to hold so firm.

weakening our body, soul and spirit.

Sometimes we wished we were stronger,

in order to protect, trust and accomplish a duty.

Sometimes, you just wish the music will stop playing,

so that life's song will be heard through and thorough.

Sometimes you wished to create the music in you,

to share, care and love.

Sometimes you just wish time will stop,

to provide a new hope, chance, and mercy to change one;s life.

Sometimes, you will think, the best thing to manipulate in life,

would be time.

if it would be made possible,

many things could be altered to perfection.

Sometimes

the perfect life does not reflect life after all.

McD Fries Results (Final)

2009-11-19T05:17:00.000-08:00

well as we could see. the first bottle wasnt really a success.

but the next one..

has an abundant of parasites!

first time im happy to see rotten food.

coz.

at least it feels safer to eat. :D

cheers!

its been a while since i listened to christian music.

lyrics are.. still very good :)

there is a difference about songs from people who loves God.

a whole lot of difference.

yeah. a whole new genre.

anyway.

cheers to this wonderful life.

Stress

2009-11-14T04:31:00.000-08:00

nice see you again!

ms patrick and ms shrek on the loose.

MCD fries results

2009-11-08T23:37:00.000-08:00

erm yes.

the fries in the left bottle has started to rosak/rot/change.

they have black dots on it.

and also white webs on it - some microscopic stuffs

and yes the colour of the fries has gotten darker.

so the second bottle...

since i poured water on it, theres this surface of oil covering the fries.

but the surface has these rotting elements.

the fries are not much affected.

as you can see.. its covered with these .. white mos.

anyway ive decided to leave em for a longer time to see how far can they rot. :D

ill use a better camera by then

so yeah.

bandar utama Mcd Fries do rot.
so .. we shall eat mcd fries with more peace?
maybe i should try experimenting on the beef patties next time. if i have extra again.
beef patties sounds more interesting than fries.

Lets Talk about Food Fun

2009-11-06T02:23:00.000-08:00

these are Mcd fries.

im gonna store em this way until i graduate. thats about 7 months from now.

the one on the left are stored in open air. meaning, there is nothing but fries in the bottle.

the righty has fries with tap water in it.

looking forward to ittttt

~~its another busy weekend.~~

cleaned my room and mop it even.

refreshing it is!

missing peanuts again.

whats with me and peanuts these days.

its as if im addicted to it.

i guess ill eat maggi tonight.

ive been eating too much wholemeal bread for the past few days O_O

i need something else for the day.

anyway.

as for maggi quality,

ive resorted that CINTAN has better mee quality as compared to other brands.

missing korean, japanese, thailand and australian instant noodles.

maybe ill ask some friends who are studying abroad

to get instant noodles back for me.

why hadnt i thought of that

currently am also addicted to Anberlin.

feeling quite deprived lately.

Emotions

2009-11-02T03:08:00.000-08:00

Its been a while since ive felt this emotion.

Sad and Lonely.

so yeah coincidently i went to 38 at Chloe's blog.

the piano piece played there spelled my emotion.

invisible spelling of course,

with invisible descriptions

of camouflaged moments.

sad for certain reason.

lets just say that,

its been a while since ive been part of a crowd.

kinda missed that feeling.

what's left are memories.
what's need to be done ...

...

lol.

thats ie. lol

ambience = FAIL

fuh. alright!

gotta go back to work.

i need ideas i need ideas i need ideas.

i need a miracle.

currently rushing a 3 week work into 2 days.

(T_T)

did not regret going to singapore though.

but coming back sick and slept for 2 whole days

had me a lot of consequences to bear!!!

YOSH!

Brain Reinstallation

2009-10-28T19:16:00.000-07:00

The last post was so emo.

i was, tbh (to be honest).

Last night has been one of my depressing moments.

as i was laying sick on my bed sleeping,

deep down i was worried (until depressed) that i could not cope

with my work load. since i slept a lot for the past 2 days.

almost everyone is aiming for first class.

why not, due to the benefits it could provide.

yes, i would like to aim coz it could provide me a free or half scholarship from

ptptn loan users.

so yeah i was so depressed last night.

anyway im feeling much better now from the sleep (or rest) last night.

i intended to sleep from 5-7pm, wake for dinner,

then sleep after dinner until 3am to rush my dissertation.

but after dinner, i slept like a rock until the morning approaches.

i could not hear the alarm at all!

i must have dozed off into the pits of dreamland. xD

anyway, all the best for dissertation and year 3 design!!

Innovative!

Creative!

my final year as a student!

Wasted energy?

2009-10-27T06:46:00.000-07:00

Sometimes i just wonder.

Why are there certain friendships that i held so firm,

yet in the end js to feel neglected and used countless times.

probably what ive seen and heard,

been and experienced was an illusion.

Probably memories from the other bridge will be forgotten anyway.

something i find it hard for my own side.

what are these memories anyway?

memorable memories meant to be forgotten?

or js some useful elements to be mentioned in the future.

i feel like a joke myself of another person's life.

after all, im js a partner in everything.

just not a friend.

~~all i want is a little prezzie from the labour which caused my feets to blister.~~
~~i was ready to give more than what you wanted.~~

~~but what i had in reply left me an abrupt stop of the mind~~
~~and made me laughed at myself.~~

~~can i say, please, i dont want to talk to you ever again?~~

About Killing myself

2009-10-18T04:36:00.000-07:00

SO.

...

i told myself that im going to kill

myself

if i dont finish my work today.

WHY.

coz tml i have JPJ exams.

FOR THE WHOLE DAY.

well.

almost.

i need to be prepared at 7.30am, awaiting for the transport to

get me to the examination port.

and my exam is at 11.00pm!!!!

im thinking what work can i do without any computer and internet.

so ive planned to finish part of my dissertation work by tonight,

PROVIDED THAT I HAVE ENOUGH SLEEP FOR THE EXAM TML.

Dissertation work:

1000 words

Surveys

Outline with paragraphs and pictures as well.

to be handed on Tuesday wow wow?

therefore i think i can do the surveys while waiting for my turn on monday morning.

i do not know how long will the precedure take as it seems that i am

one of the last batch in line.

lets assume that it kills my time until 4pm.

thus,

ill continue my design work.... when i got back home.

and tuesday ill go to Klang for further research and confirmation of the site.

WHICH WILL TAKE A WHOLE DAYLIGHT.

greats..

a lot of hours gone.

hopefully ill finish my work CEPAT DAN TEPAT enough to submit the following day,
which a wednesday.

a wednesday afternoon.

SO VENETIA YOU HAVE ONE MORE NIGHT TO FINISH YOUR

DISSERTATION WORK

BEFORE YOU END UP KILLING YOURSELF
FOR BEING TOO LATE TO START YOUR ON DESIGN COURSEWORK

GO GO GO GO GO GO VENETIAAAAAA

*its a fast lane we're livin*

(come on venetia, you have time)

(its no big deal, you are js over exaggerating)

(you can do it, its only 7.30pm now and you had your dinner)

(venetia you are js not working fast enough)

(you are js too slow)

(what have you been doing??? you have a human brain not a snail brain)

(JUST DO IT! GOSH)

(make your decision as if you are working!)

(you js need to be more steady)

(every minute is precious)

(every brain strain you have now will be worth it)

(you must sleep the most by 1pm to have at least 6 hours of rest!)

(work fasterrrrrr)

(drink more waterrr)

(wait for the fooooooodddd)

(VENETIA YOU MUST FINISH YOUR WORK!)

)worries she does not have enough rest for jpj exam(

)worries she cant finish work in time(

~FOod FRIeNDS~

wait for me, my food friends.

ok enough of expressing and expressing
felt like a kid all of the sudden.
back to work!
i can do it!!!!

life is awesome as it is.

Ming Yao

2009-10-10T09:46:00.000-07:00

So yeah.

its been ages since i went out with Ming yao.

AGES.

The fact that we've been housemates for almost 2 years.

..........

this is only the.. idk less than 10 times we've gone out together or with anyone else.

we kinda know each other quite a lot in another way.

as housemates.

yeah.

he knows when to bug me or when not too.

coz he's seen too much of my other side as housemates.

well.

he is a good person.

nice person.

had a great time going out with him! : )

could have taken some pics js now. but anyway,

this is him.

i stole this from his fb.

he is single.

and a good person.

anyone interested?

A piece of randomness

2009-09-29T07:17:00.000-07:00

was chating with dave on skype.

after a while,

he asked: "do you want to see something random?"

venetia: "yeah"

*shows a wire to the web cam.

(and venetia burst to laughter)

dave: "yeah. thats the wire to my lap top's external power source."

---------------------------------------------------------

humourous.

maybe i should thank Jude for his unconscious training of cold jokes.

anyway ive been having the red eye on my left eye for more than a month now.

i wonder why. maybe some spring cleaning is needed to my room now.

hm.

and the eye drops recommended by the doctor is not working very well.

they taste bitter.

yes,

after dripping em onto my eyes,

i know that its sliding down my throat.

and then the bitter sensation will torture me for a while until ive swallowed em all.

weird.

first time encounter after using eye drops.

wait. is that even normal?

cant be bothered to check it at the moment

these are some pictures from places ive visited and like during my 'summer' holiday.

Lang Tengah, Redang Trip

Tina's apartment.

a great view.

Ming Yap's front house, Malacca

Malacca,

Jonker Street, Malacca

Eye on Malacca

Francis' apartment, great view too

Francis' apartment

k. gotta start doing my work!

a 'must post' post

2009-09-27T04:46:00.000-07:00

well yeah. i js have to say this.

today is officially my last day of my holiday.

and my last 'summer' break in my life - having that i did not pursue my masters.

holiday was great. although im didnt have enough of it.

js like what jasmine yii had mentioned,

our life of black and white is coming back.

which means that days of not knowing night and day

will resume as it is.

and yes, im kinda looking forward to it. coz

i know it will be the last black and white life i will have as a student.

yeah

thats it.

"its the fast lane we're livin in"

A lil fun with an old friend, Francis.

2009-09-22T06:32:00.000-07:00

On the way back,

Francis pointed towards the sky:

"......"

and didnt say anything actually.

so yeah we concluded that it looked like a duck.

Nature is awesome.

Me Ramblings of a Christian

2009-09-20T09:50:00.000-07:00

Let's js say this is another super random blog.

since... i write to let my thoughts flow or talk to myself. yes, i know its weird.

yeah.

been roughly looking into youtubes about human evolutions vs religions, particularly Christianity.

ive been aware of this since.. idk when.

well

i dont know all those back up researchs. so definitely have nothing much or else nothing to say.

rather i would prefer stating or saying why am i a christian despite so many .. disputes/opinions/comment/researches about christianity from non christians.

particular topics such as human evolution, science and religion, sexual orientation such as homosexuals, transgender, bisexuals, judaism VS muslim VS christianity, historical factors about the bible and others that i dont know of.

yeah.

my point would be. i find these things ... very hard to talk about. coz. evolutionary stuff is nvr predictable. only assumptions. but the ppl doing research are... i dont know. experianced ppl. one of the ppl who could help humanity see the future. which also includes the predictions of how rats would look like in the future and so forth. idk. these people do.. contribute so much. its their profession after all, what can i say and debate?

i would definitely agree that science had helped so much with the humanity race.

so so much that i think i can die living a life as of the past.

cant deny science has helped humanity so much, and indeed is part of humanity. whatever we see and breath is part of physics. interesting topics and facts made the human race know more about themselves and their existence. and thats how humans become more and more advanced.

so where does the religion come in?

can humans live without a religion.

i guess definitely yes.

my guess is many are succesful. they have a good family, they live in the right ... 'codes' where humans should live. ya know. something like having a good environment to grow up... a polite and humour family..

so what about religion?

i guess this really draws down the line to the point of a question to where AN answer is impossible to achieve as of now.

in the past of the medieval times and before, many needed a religion as guidance, to feel comfort and security and to survive.

finally, js like human nature, ppl finally use their brain to the full potential. that is where the renaissance finally came and thats where humans start to realise that they could survive even without a god. well of coz the hypocrites in the churches does contribute to this fact as well. sad thing. haih. human greed, pride, and ego.

this develops to where humans rights and so forth... ya know blacks and whites, slave and children, women rights, homo rights.. until today where homosexuals have their stand in certain countries, left handeds are allowed to live properly, what else. so much more.

coming back to the millennium...

its also possible to get cured of depression. where there are researches of the phychological side where humans could start to help one another by posting em on the internet, and ya get to know whether do you have a mental disorder. if you do then you are directed under more care and understanding of yourself.

not to mention, medical have brought so much new 'miracles' where ppl cant possibly survive in the past.

imagine transporting a surgeon back in time. ppl might think he is god of medicine. haha. well yeah.

humans are really smart creatures after all.

where was i?

hm.

yeah. i dont know. personally..

WHY am i a christian? haha..

erm well.

basically coz i think that LOVE alone does conquer a lot of things. LOVE could heal the hearts of the broken hearted, hearts of the abandoned, hearts of the unwanted, hearts of the lonely ppl. could you imagine a country led with love and wisdom? or at least love. imagine how many ppl would want to migrate to that country. but its hardly...
well anyway.

why being a christian is that...

apart from the miracles ive experianced.

the practicality of the mind comes in. where.....

yeah. i would like to live in a world of love, a place where people know their own sins and learn how to correct them. knowing that there is a God above them and take a lifetime to know Him through the bible.

i like the idea of living in peace. a place where ppl would know you as who you are and not what you are. a place where rapists, adultery, whatever that could create a heart wretch would be at a very low rate - a place you could take a stroll in the night and view the stars.

and yeah...

why not christianity?

so thats why i took another step in my christian walk to know Him more. i mean God is js too vague. but believe coz of the miracles in my life and being a practical person. i think its ok to be a christian. a lot of benefits. ya get to understand grace, unconditional love, ask for more wisdom... and the rest we need to search.

lol talking about christian robots, i was one of them who js 'blindly' obey what the bible says. something like 'i pray for wisdom everyday'. but have no idea what wisdom is about and what it could create and change. or. i pray for protection and ... *laughs. have no idea or understanding of His fearsome Greatness. yeah.

sometimes, i feel saddened about certain christian issues. well i guess humans are not perfect in any way aight? no matter who they are. deep down, humans are still humans. even if they are pastors or some.. holy guy who could heal in His name.i mean. its not about them changing, sinning and cause embarassment...

but! merely the respond of the church they are in itself. ive read one story of a pastor having adultery in Australia few years back. He and his family left the church! cant the church do something about it? hes still human. what else. pastors who fraud themselves as 'healers'. i guess. there is always a need to forgive. in fact im getting tired of disputes among christians coz it doesnt make sense. at all. we are under the same God and we cant settle a problem among ourselves. cant we js live in peace? so what if a pastor turned into a gay?

things like this are hard to explain... it links back to the past and links here and there in the phychological mind and MaYBE medical. i mean we cant understand ourselves sometimes dont we? what do we want and desire. my main point is that, this pastor has done so much to teach this church. when he was down the pits, was the church welcoming enough to accept him back? i mean... how interesting it is to know that their cups have not been filled at all!

evenso, there are a lot more to consider on situations like this... maybe the pastor js cant face himself anymore and cant accept the love that the church wanted to give altho after his adultery - and threatens to kill himself if they dont stop asking him to go back to church. Or, he is firm to take the homo path - which makes a total fullstop.

oh well

topics as these are neverending until the end of the human race.

but humanity rocks. i love my life. its a pleasure to live and experiance a life.

i thank God for my chance to live on earth. wanna understand Him more.

MORNING!

2009-09-15T19:42:00.000-07:00

Im starting to realise the favourite time of my day wud be MORNINGS.

and 2ndly NIGHTS.

had fuzball with kimi last night.

it was my very first time putting my hands on em.

and it was VERY embarassing since i dont know how to play.

i mean,

MAN I WANT TO KALAHKAN KAU.

but my skills are.. in fact 0.

berabis malu sa.

but anyhow.

greats!

so back to topic

again its a morning that im blogging.

and yes, im wide awake with the fact that school is gonna start

k lets not bother to say D word.

i guess i have yet to feel fulfilled with the hols i had.

May:

Finals

Pcom conpetition

Pulau Redang Trip

June:

(kk)

rested a week, then worked for 3 weeks.

July:

(kk)

keep going out with frens for 9 days then headed off to kl

(kl)

Internship

August:

internship

Sept:

Melaka Trip

enjoyed for 2 weeks with frens and self.

sch reopens soon.

AHHHH!!!

+_+_+_+_+_+

k anyway. during my intern i got to know someone better.

she is tina, a vietnamese who js graduated frm kbu.
who was coincidentally, also my working colleague during my previous part time job.

we are pretty common in some ways,

that is why we can click.

eg: dont need to be too polite with each other.

during work we laughed too much -

i just dont know why.

yeah thats her.

then there was one fine day,

she invited me to her house for dinner.

so that was my first time to experience Vietnamese cuisine.

there i was, first time stepping into her apartment

and had the living room blew my mind off!

a view id dream of having.

at least for me.

suppose theres more sky and a lot more breathtaking

but my phone camera cant fit everything in.

but that really lighten up my day.

: D

then i stepped into the kitchen.

d flr is quite oily. but man its cookin'.

smells good too!

thats her friend, Mai.

She's frying beef wrapped in a vietnamese leaf.

which apparently according to them the ones

in malaysia is too small to wrap anything.

these are the baked ones.

and i cant figure out why my pic is uploaded in this manner.

so the end product looks like this.

then here comes the 2nd star from the vietnamese cuisine.

this is called rice paper.

available in greenway with only less than rm3.00.

you can fry it like keropok.

but in an extremely fast manner.

the moment you put it in the boiling oil,

you'll need to take it up again.

tina used chopsticks.

then here it goes!

dinner is served!

first you need to briefly wet the rice paper.

then quickly apply some vegetables and the beef-leaf on it.

or whatver you have as long as you are happy with the filling.

the taste is Great!!

i feel so healthy.

and its nice.

the beef-leaf is also nice.

adding on the sauce with 5 ingredients
(fish soya sauce + chopped chili padi + fresh lime juice + vinegar + garlic)

its even better man.

so the conclusion was i had a great day.

time passes by very fast talking with tina.

i will visit tina one day,

back in vietnam.

well coz she influenced my thoughts and finally made me wanna go

to vietnam.

she is such a vietnam lover xD.

The past mornings...

2009-08-29T05:52:00.000-07:00

...were great.

well, that includes this morning.
the sky was painted with beautiful patterns of clouds rarely seen in kl.

its a saturday again,
sadly, i have done nothing useful for the day.
but it was great feeling the silence all around me once again.
listening to the birds chirping,
the sound of the fan,
looking at the blue sky from my window,
listening to a guy singing out loud while passing by the alley,
and so forth.
anyways,
a great day of silent solitude.

i miss the times where i have a story book in my hands.

___________________________________________

my internship has finally ended.

oh.

its not entirely over yet.
next wed tina and i will be joining our boss to ipoh for a meeting.

i am happily expecting that. :D

that would officially be my last day
_______________________________________________

Ramblings of the past

2009-08-22T06:33:00.000-07:00

yep.. so
i have to type my stuff all over again.
coz ive accidently switched off the power source.

- here we go~ -

today was a guithy day.
right after work until now, ive been on the lap top reading mangas.
AND EATING ALL THE WAY.
i could feel that a few kg's are gained from today's obsolete activity.

its been a lonely while for now since school has not started yet.
but its something i need to have i realised,
to start searching for myself again.
(^_^)'
yeah.
ive been doin this for every holidays i have.
its all about searching who i am.
its something ive decided to do after my year 1 first sem break.
coz.
im actually a pretty lost person in character due to the traumas i had in the past.
i may be an extrovert at times, yet its js to hide who i am on the inside.
of course, there are times, i was being genuinely hyper.

on the outside, many people told me that my character is very obvious.
contrary to that, i know very well i have a weak character deep down.
i knew i was so much stronger back before i was 9 years old.
i have strong memories of the emotions i have from my past as a child.
that was how i could remember who i was.
i am particularly emotional therefore it took me no effort to remember
memories that hit me really hard.

childhood memories aged before 9 years old:

even the homely scent of my friend's house, charles,
his mother's first meal cooked chicken with soy sauce which i find it weird,
kendrick's kissing fish, which they are always laughing about it,
may may in her kimono when she still had her long hair,
we were all living pretty near each other.
i always thought prinsley and may may are good friends, and
jerry lives the furthest of all.
my birthday cake when i was 2,
the first washing machine we had,
the first day i got my first pet,
the colour of its first poo even!
feel of the bed and the air conditioner at while watching akazukin chacha,
the fake money that i drew,
the lipsticks my mother had,
the feel of the wet sand,
how my mother would teach, scold, or complain the maid,
where my maid live,
how some of them look like,
some of them were really really nice.
the time when sunday arrives, where i have nothing to do.
perhimpunan? hehe.
i do not have afternoon naps.
i could remember it all. the texture of the cement near my house,
the night with pouring rain where my mother walked me out to buy js
the favourite ice cream i only like - its RM1.20. very expensive at that time.
blueberry, at marintaman convenient shop.
the son of marintaman owner xD which i use to have a crush on him,
a conversation i used to have with him about report cards.
i actually have a lot a lot of toys. i remember some of them.
i remember some birthday parties a bit here and there.
my first bike and my cptank gang of course,
one of the people i will nvr let go.
i could remember the joys i had with my childhood friends,
like killing cocoons and enjoying it,
catching tadpoles,
playing badminton,
jogging at 7pm with kendrick, cassil and their mother, sometimes with their father as well.
i remember having stitches,
i remember when cassil first slapped me coz i was rude to her brother,
i ran back home and got another lecture from my brother and cried even more.
the sadness,
the frustrations i had over my maids and my mother,
the arrogance over my mother again,
yelling and crying myself to sleep coz i wasnt able to go for swimming.
the nights that my mother helped me to pick out kutu from my hair after
getting them from classmates.
i remember it was 11pm that my mother needed to sleep.
and woke up early the next morning to tie the hairstyle i wanted when i 4/5 years old.
very contrary to who i am now. i was very very vain.
the determination to learn how to ride a bike,
OH
i was extremely kiasu.
xD
totally.
like winning a singing competition,
drawing (and i brought a lot of free milk back home!
lol back then my mother was happy o coz)
running.
i was a monitor in class. i remember how horrible i was.
haha. i was the teacher's favourite student. a few.
i remember being so jealous when the teacher get kind with students i dont really like.
but i did cried and screamed once.
coz they were too noisy.
i also remember the day i had to leave to kk.
i remember some teachers.
i believe my cptank gang holds more childhood memories that i do.
we remember different things anyway. hehe.

im not boasting, but merely stating,
i remember very well how people used to praise me since i was young.
how good my memory was on remembering roads,
having a good memory in general,
how well my behavior is,
me being a good girl.
contrary to now,
..
yeah. im pretty bad at remembering roads,
bad in memory,
and kinda watever in certain behavior.
weeeeeeeeee

yeah.
after that i moved to kk at the fifth month of 1997,
i also remembered how i slowly lost myself then.

it was because,
from the age 9-15,
ive learned:

to hide my emotions and not to cry.
ill bit the walls of my mouth on the inside with my teeth sometimes until it bleeds,
in order to force myself to not cry over certain matters.
ive learned how to avoid responsibilities.
ive learnt how to hate.
ive learned how to be alone at night, writing a lot of
letters to my pen pals to release my emotions.
i have 26 penpals almost all over malaysia,
and another 1 in Hong Kong. haih so busy.
ive also learned how to draw during midnight,
to free my mind into another world.
ive learned how to play RPG games,
to have a second life second joy,
where i meet new imaginary beautiful people.
ive therefore, learned how to day dream intensely.
today, i still day dream when im stressed,
sometimes unconsiously.
ive learned ignorance,
but deep down i know i was a witness too.
ive learned not to care or bother too much.
ive learned how to runaway, hide and survive.
ive learned how to please people.
ive learned that i cant be alone.
ive learned that all i need is frens.
ive learned how to lose focus.
ive learned that the future is insecure and blunt therfore,
every passion in life is a waste of time..
ive learned that there is no point to live.
ive learned how to fake a smile and laughter,
knowing that later it will all drain down when i reach back home.
ive learned how to be smile when i get offended or hurt treating it like a
joke to the offender,
but deep down i was torn apart.
basically, just smile in front of everyone,
and everything will be okay.

no matter how many people ive told about my situation.
it was all in vain.

"ill just keep it to myself"

at the age of 12,
i 'knew' soujiro seta.
an animation character deeply rooted into my character.
he is a professional samurai who is always smiling.
i liked him coz he became so real in me,
thus he became my favourite character.
in a way, along the story, i could understand his emotions.
in the end he let down the genuine tears that has been
welling in him for a very long time,
after a defeat in a battle.
and he is free.
after the tears, a new person is revealed.

at the age of 14,
i attempted to commit suicide.
but of course as a christian,
i do not want to go to hell.
therefore, pain is a good feeling for me.
i cut myself a few times.
peel or purposely cause more pain on any wounds on my body,
and actually enjoyed the sensation of it.
i died a lot of times in my own imagination.
sometimes i punch walls or hit myself to petrify the emotional and mental pain.

actually im feeling kinda tired of talking so much about myself.

k anyway.
ive decided to change eversince i start hating myself.
i wanna stand back up and live a straightened life
i have so much to improve!
(^_^)
i have God.
so yeah. masih boleh.
He is my Saviour after all, after the sufferings in 2003.
He took away the Oppressors when i was 17 and gave me a miracle when i was 18.
yeah.
im living in liberty.
Thanks God.
though i dont know You js too well yet.

Venetia completed the quiz "What's your biggest weakness?" with the result Soul.

You are intelligent and you think about life and philosophy and WHY to everything. A lot. But you are missing passion. You like to do creative things, but they ...often lack the soul behind it. You can make people laugh and beat your friends in an IQ test, but when it comes to living life to the fullest you are lost, even though you think you aren't. You think you are right, but underneath of it all you are confused. You are only guided by your mind which often leads you astray, but your soul rarely reflects in your life. You like to work hard for things and you think you deserve them, but you sometimes wonder why you are where you are. You need direction for your persistent and determined personality, but you aren't sure where to get it. .

:D

i was supposed to do some work. but i was so lazy. but still need to do work.

2009-08-17T09:49:00.000-07:00

~ V.~ says:
normally you do work first is it

daniel | perfect.in.weakness says:
i value my sleep. lol..
so i do everything before sleeping?
i guess
i dunno

~ V.~ says:
hm

............................Later on.......................

~ V.~ says:
transter energy to me!

daniel | perfect.in.weakness says:
BLEH
PEW PEW PEW

~ V.~ says:
HAHAHHA
WOooshhh *slides away

daniel | perfect.in.weakness says:
=D
tell me to go mandi

~ V.~ says:
GOGOGOGOGOOGOGOGOGOOGO 去冲凉！！

daniel | perfect.in.weakness says:
LOL
OK
last

~ V.~ says:
LAST WHAT

daniel | perfect.in.weakness says:
done
hahahaha
ok!
i go

~ V.~ says:
main game you!
xD
bah see you in 15 min
military camp

daniel | perfect.in.weakness says:
LOL!
T_T

~ V.~ says:
lol

daniel | perfect.in.weakness says:
GO DO YOUR WORK
kthxbai

~ V.~ says:
xD
BB
eh i wanna post this.
can send me the fronter par

********end**********

lets js say that this random chat did gave me some semangat to do work. lol
thanks 大牛!

strange year.

2009-08-16T09:11:00.000-07:00

its been a great while ever since im being what i am now.
sitting alone, in a dark room,
wanting to blog. hehe.

i would say every year has been significant to me.
but this year was strange.
normally they say you are an adult when you are 21.
i didnt know it would be this real for me at the exact age.

for the first time i really had to move on and let the innocence go.
and start to see things differently.
so yeah. i guess these days ill be pretty solemn and quiet for a while.
x)

its strange really.
its as if im looking at myself on the mirror for the whole day,
watching out for my own actions.
whenever any childish acts come out, such as improper manners,
i could feel it instantly.
for a better explanation,
i dont really go for "whatever" on everything anymore.

whats more, i have a totally different view of my fellow boy friends.
which sat me into a mode of confusion for 2 weeks.
moreover,
ive noticed the change of the features of my facial expression.
it makes me looks older.
i cant say i dont like it eh?
whats done is done.

my choice of songs have changed too.
im starting to appreciate jazz, blues, funk, jiwang music.
i cant tolerate them - used to.

yet if i have a choice,
i would rather all these be delayed
until im 25?

nyeh.

2009-08-08T11:01:00.000-07:00

2009-08-08T10:48:00.000-07:00

我的话语。这篇东西写了30 分钟++哦！

2009-07-25T07:14:00.000-07:00

这次我想把我的想法以话文来分想。

超罕见难得。

都是一些认真的话题。

哈哈。。。 ^^"
。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

有时候，简坦就是福。

不管有多忙，困闷，高心，伤心等等的。

只要能简简坦坦的刻服一切，

我想，

生活大概会过得更康慨。

我会期待我那一刻。

。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

时间，

如河流的水一样。

很匆忙的冲过人类的生活，

永远不暂停，

永远不停留。

只因必要，

人类只好随从它。

人类永远不能低抗大自然。

被毁灭的游戏会倒向着人物，

很快的和其他的生物一块儿被灭亡。

简坦的说，人类也是大自然之一，

伤害大自然就等于伤害了自己。

。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

谢谢守看。

Final

2009-07-18T05:33:00.001-07:00

its been a while since ive watched japanese animation.

SEKIREI.
not bad.

:D

Etc

2009-07-17T08:36:00.000-07:00

.Third day of work, my internship.

i was told to design a dressing table.

my 3d max 2009 is corrupted

where i cant render either with raytrace and

too much

refraction and reflection.
and thus

despite of that, i really thot i did a reasonably good job.

i think its fine, although i despise the lightings which i cant control js yet.

then, i simply turned around to view my working colleague's work.

(shes also doing a dressing table but with another proposal)

my confidence

immediately transformed into a rock,

and fell down on the carpet floor.

***

SHES A FREAKING PROFESSIONAL

***

i was therefore petrified.

stunned.

i shook myself back to earth

and immediately go 38 with her,

steadily.

haha.

yeah. she is a professional.

with no design cert at all.

nvr paid for 3d max training.

but she was trained.

amazing.

and she helped me solved a few problems

that i nvr get to solve in sch time.

which was cool.

js shows that its her professionalism.. however you name it.

boss is good.

OH.

yeah.

anyway.

it was my first time working in a design firm.

my first impression of this office of kinda positive.

everything feels right.

?Y?

coz the office is messy.

just like how most designers would be.

working time was kinda loose too.

js like a designer.

working attire is

pretty whatever actually.

i believe this does not apply to all companies though.

anyway..

js anything not too horrible.

me like. <3

(for a better picture - some frens wore slippers and t shirt to work)

................................................................................................................

2009-07-03T09:49:00.000-07:00

.Their Farewell.

Benjamin, on the far right-who i think is potential to be a model

James on the right (man he's grown and still too cute)

Laura, who turned into a grown lady

Andrew, who always looks steady.

SO these are the DILLONS.
who out of the sudden needs to go back to Canada.
i dono why but i will miss them.
not close.
but will miss the fam. ever had tht feeling?

i guess ive gotten so used to them being around. then suddenly.
they are gone.

they are discreet in church.
not loud.
but very visible coz of their skin tone.

anyway.
they are a great bunch.

-------------------------------------------------------------

.Newly Picked.

i was supposed to go back to kl a few days ago.

but my internship got postponed.
so did my flight back to kl then.

to be frank, i was kinda.. reluctant to stay back in kk.
but since my mother insisted. so i thought its fine since i wont be back during
xmas and new year.

well.
it turned out pretty well!
life is happier now coz..
ive learnt to be thankful and appreciative in a new perspective.

it was through a very simple process.

1. my nephew was watching Cinderella.
and though it was an old animation,
i thought that.. Cinderella was pretty cool for being
so patient and thankful though she was being mistreated.
it hard to see these kind of things these days.
coz it looks so pure.

2. the two great days at Daniel's house - Bethany.
which most of the time i did nothing much but reading.
and manage to sit on every seat in the living room
but.
i dont know.
most things are simple there as observed.
i think its coz i really like the environment there. the house.
and the stairs. the wind. the air. the sound of nature.
and sometimes the happening cat named mittens. super manja.
and of coz when you hv frens there - tho we were doin our own things.
frens are like ... whats that again.
emerald. whatever.
meaning its rare.
anyway. getting to meet up with daniel is cool.
coz dono when will meet again since ill be graduating not too long from now.
and as usual, i din talk much with Justin.
and this is our frenship and we know it. lol.
i think Bethany is a cool place to rest the mind.

3. the farewell for the Dillons.
i don hv any pics, but it was awesome.
its been a while i laughed until i cannot breathe.
or until i think laughing is a torture.
the people and so on.
js realised that to appreciate every moment in life is so important.
coz we wont know what is coming next.
js enjoy the time now whether its good or bad.
appreciate bad times and good times alike.
bad times are good anyway.
coz.
ive been pondering about ppl who keep complaining,
keep fussing about troubles and their lives, and their posessions,
and what else, being comparative, being jealous,
being envious, ppl who keep looking back -
which totally includes me,
and...
i start to see that all those are a waste of time.
so yeah. appreciative and being thankfulness is actually like a remedy.
should take it like an apple a day, keeps the doctor away.

-------------------------------------------------------------

.Confession.

and some do not know.
my Christian walk is like pretty steep now.
coz im in the middle of a mess on the question of the what is the way to heaven.
im from a background that says
as long as we confess our sins and accept Jesus into our heart and have faith,
there is salvation.

ive received the Holy Spirit,
and ive seen vision.
and got healed.
and got manifested spirit of oppresison.
ive accepted Him as my Lord and Saviour.
i believe He came to save us,
to teach us and straigten things up for us.

there are many sayings on what is the way to heaven.
i would say that my confusion is more of not knowing Him at all.
and realised theres so much more i dont understand about the bible.

yes, im confused about my salvation.
coz i do not know His ways.
such a loser.
but not too late.

shared this with a fren long time ago
and was happy with the feedback
"your foundation is not firm".

so i gotta know Him once again.
dont know which church to grow yet.
but i know ill be fine as long as i don give up
both on myself and in prayer.

its was suffering coz of the confusion.
but at the same time, im looking forward to the
final results.

God has proved to me who He is.
i cant js let the relationship go js like that.
i cant abandon Him who did not abandon me.

all the best to me!
after this, i know ill start to fly.

Change.

2009-06-29T10:29:00.000-07:00

things can never be the same anymore.
while the earth rotates,
so does every bit of life that exists on it.
evolution and revolutions begins and begin again,
creating a never ending story for every creature.

and.

for some stories,
im disliking certain chapters of it.

and..
heh.
whatever.

anyway
thanks to daniel for listening to my ramblings at that particular time -
which was .... ...
...
i think 3 weeks ago.

dono when was this taken. i think it was last year.

and one thing about me.

im pretty bad at accepting certain realities.

a change is needed.

2009-06-21T07:51:00.000-07:00

Ever had the intention to breathe again?

Sometimes, we wished we'd stop breathing.

may it be a minute or so.
just a break to take.

In that dark forest.
Lost and cold.
Barely breathing
barely living.

Arrows came shooting by thus causing hurt and pain.
by hunters we thought as friends.
i hope i could be invincible for another day.

the stars told me not to cry and run.
comforted me like my mother use to when i was young.

mother owl always tell her children
"its never too late to start".
start searching and you'll soon find em'
spread your wings, the night is time to embark.

we cant count sand.nor the stars.
nor the veins that flows in our bloodstream.

we think we can see.
we think we understand.

yet.
do we really see it deep and thorough,
and understand it through and through?

The gift of wisdom that human possess
let it manifest and magnify

let the waves overturn.
lets sing a new song.
the combination of a new day and new hope.

2009-06-11T12:12:00.000-07:00

I rarely have problems sleeping but now its happening.

probably coz i have a lot in my mind to clutter myself awake, (a part i pretty much dislike about myself) or its coz ive slept for the whole daylight.

whatever the reason is, im frustrated enuf due to the fact that i need to be awake in 4 hours time to get to work. i need that rest coz i have a sprained neck or something similiar to that.

its ... the most immobile life ive ever experianced.
couldnt even talk without pain. walk without pain or sit without pain. when the pain triggers a mild faint will hit me - causing me to pause any activity for a few seconds. i couldnt turn my head to the left for the whole day. for the whole daylight my head is facing 45-70 degrees. thus imagine the whole day wasted doing nothing good - except accompanying my nephew. i couldnt even read a book!!! or carry my nephew. watever position im in, kills me. therefore the only position i feel comfortable with is laying my back straight on my bed, facing 45 degrees - and sleep the pain away.

its 3.40am. still cant sleep.

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im in stress.
i need to go to a phychologist.
coz i wondering whether do i have a mild ADHD (attention deficit hyperactive disorder)
coz my attention span is short in comparison to other friends or most of the people i know.
i have serious problems in paying attention. therefore, im kinda proud with myself that i went through my finals in year 2 as that was when.. i think i suffered the most of my atttention.. problem.

doing 3dmax9 halfway i went into day dreaming mode.
doing model halfway, my mind drifted into day dreaming land.
sometimes to an extend my eyes are seen fixed on the board im holding in my hands, but my hands are not continuing the model making. (does that sound normal?)

when im doing something, my day dreaming mode will switch on unconsciously - countless times as auto pilot mode. disrupting my working progress and its quality - not evrything i do, but some.
i find this fact disturbing.
thus again, i need to do some check up.
its as if im a child having problems concentrating when the teacher is teaching upfront.
as ive read, ADHD could be applied to adults too.

therefore, turning into someone practical is a huge transformation to my mindset. coz i daydream too much to think properly - sometimes. its pretty tiring. sometimes ive to force myself not to day dream. (doesnt sound normal too)

3.59am.

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did a ADHD test.
says i do not fall into the category.

maybe im js stressing about. meh.

4.53am.

Its over.

2009-05-12T08:11:00.000-07:00

yeah project is over.

its cool.

and i got problems sleeping at night now. *sighs*

lol.... IAD student's climacs lifestyle

2009-04-28T01:16:00.000-07:00

so here am i with a short blog.
to share this little part of ... IAD student lifestyle.

this morning
During Tutorial..

Mike said: "i thought cannot use motherboard?"

original message: "i thought cannot use modelling board?"
(classmates laughed at mike)

venetia said: "how long does it take to finish the game?"

original message: "how long does it take to finish the working drawings?
(classmates stares and laughed at venetia)

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Yesterday
..

venetia said: "tomorrow is tuesday la"

rafe: "EHHH??? i thought its saturday???!!!!"

(venetia gets confused for a while too)

(venetia thinks back)
(rafe thinks back)

"oh yeah its tuesday"

after a while...

rafe: "tomorrow is thursday right?"

(venetia stares at rafe)

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few weeks ago

yvonne: "venetia, you know this morning i used the knife to scoop milo into my cup.."

(it sounded really funny when she told me)

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Daily Stories of KBU IAD students

we normally remember what DAY it is.

we dont remember what DATE it is
coz we hand in our work weekly.

it is a crime to sleep.

to oversleep means you are guilty.

not enough sleep means you did some work - either last min or you are hardworking.

it is normal to see your friends acting weird sometimes.

most people experianced hand vibration - not enough sleep.

its either you gain eight or lose weight - due to stress.

we always need to chill to continue a longer journey.

every project briefing either gives these reactions

"haih..",
"O_O",
"....."
&
"%*#)$(*#@)#@"

you have no time to care about your feelings
and sometimes other ppl's as well.

there are days that you forgot to take bath.

stress that you dont feel hungry.

problems with digestions when the climacs approaches.

it is a norm to get freaked out at the wrong day
(our time frame is everywhere around the clock)
i used to get freaked out 2 days b4 submission
thinking that submission is 'tomorrow'

'gambate' is the most used word among my classmates.

what else. cant remember.

Therefore,

studying this course forces you to be mature in some parts of you.

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anyway...

im 2 weeks behind my workload.
i cant have my desktop in my journey in year 3.
my desktop has never given me any peace of mind
EVERSINCE i bought it.
but i cant blame it.
coz through it ive learnt a lot about...
many things in general.

~~~~

have to look forward.
not backward.
not inward.
but also outward.
of whatever in life.

IAD changed my life 180 degrees.
im serious O_O

and im looking forward for a better me in year 3.

Final Sem of Year 2 - Interior Architecture & Design students

2009-04-18T06:39:00.000-07:00

Our last project.

These are the personal messages in msn of my classmates and i.

enjoy.

"think twice before choose design firm"

"24 days of torture left..."

"eh-eh-eh-eh-say. done de done. 23 days of torture left..."

"[囧] take k take k~ still left 3 weeks~ 4 months holiday is coming!"

"Study Visit Report (497/2500) processing...."

"busy again~model-essay-model-when can finish a??study IAD really will die early wor~eat spray,eat UHU,sleep late~hahaha~ how leh?"

"Doing model, not free to chat now.... (just leave me message) "Happy Bday" to Bellanita & Andy Nakamura "

"let d spirit of CREATIVITY surrnd me,with mind full of FUNTIONITY & d touch of MODERNITY,2 design bynd INFINITY with LUXURITY"

"Another busy day...Everything gonna be great, gotto have more faith and focus.."

"i just hope 5 5 finish my workl.fasterrrr"

"*** thx daddy & senfong!!! *** 我很累了 i do really need a break~~~24 more days to go!!!"

"while people are saying good night,
we are saying gambateh!"

"wow wow..dark circles, pimples on my face, poor digestion, dry skins, what more?? last 4 weeks~~~OOhhhmm!"

"need a shoulder.. need hibernate after all this..treasure what u have while u still able to.."

"HOEMWORK HOMEWORK HOMEWORK...WILL NVR FINISH.."

"siapa boleh pinjam saya otak dan tangan?"

"累到极限也要撑！！！"

I wanna go for a very long break now!! Not tomorrow, not next week, not next month, Now!!!

LAST 3 WEEKS!!!!!USHHHH!!!!!gambateh everyone!!!sweet long holiday is waiting for us!!

dui ah dui ah

let me hold things other than my MOUSE~~~ NUMB NUMB NUMB...lol

back ache.. old edi.. 20 days of torture left... current favourite singer : David Choi.

"MODEL: 4/10 - ESSAY 0/10 - 3D: 1/10 - 2D: 1/10 - PROTOTYPE: 0.5/10"

thus

if you are wondering.
the last one belongs to mine.

let me elaborate further.

MODEL: given 1 week to finish (so basically i had it done late coz this is the 2nd week)
2D: part 1: 7days
part 2: not sure. but we kept editting it since the past 3 weeks.
3D: about 2 weeks ago - but my computer crashed. so i had to do it again.
ESSAY (2500 words): 2 weeks
PROTOTYPE: 2 weeks

MODEL: 2 days to submission
2D: part 1- 3 days to submission
2D: part 2 - 1 week to submission
ESSAY (2500 words): 10 days to submission
3D: 2 weeks to submission
PROTOTYPE: 10 days to submission

let me show you again.

" MODEL: 4/10
ESSAY 0/10
3D: 1/10
2D: 1/10
PROTOTYPE: 0.5/10 "

so.

im finally depending on coffee.

those not rushing will probably fall into either categories

they are an awesome time manager,
they work cepat and tepat
they work smart and fast
have great health to endure the nights
or
they have no life.

for me.

i work slow.
i din goreng.
i grill.
thats why i gotta rush.

gtg!!!!!

p/s: i seriously wonder how architecture students endure the nights coz they are in a big deal much busier than we are. and also landscape architecture students. hm.

Life's Stompin'

2009-03-26T06:51:00.000-07:00

Today was weird.

Yesterday was too.

Time is limited.

gotta make things through.

make em' through oh yes

through thick and thin,

high and low with sharp focus

the vision needed within..

Life's melody kept pumpin'

life's 'bout livin'

not survivin'.

grasp and hold it like you mean it

start livin' like ur mom did it

life's askin' : "yes or no?"

i choose: "yes",

why not?